Big decisions to make

Urgh, im getting a bit sick of this job at Zavvi. It's pants really, and i'm getting really really worried about how much time i'm actually going to get off over Christmas. I want the 23rd off for a family do as well as Boxing Day for a family do. And I think i'm just going to say that if they don't give me them off then I quit. It's not the end of the world, the pay in lieu will cover my bills in January (i think). Dunno for sure though. Just a bit annoying really. And they've given me REALLY shitty shifts this week, am not happy at all really. Got to do two 3-11 shifts, what crap! And be up for a 9-5 the day after one of those 3-11's. Grrrr!

In other news, have sold my Chemical Brothers tickets on eBay so that's £150 in the coffers. Have listed my Wii too so if I get what I want for that, it's another £250.

Parents are really seriously considering moving up north, which means we have things to do, start emptying the loft and go and visit the areas they want to move to. And the ideal time for all that is the week between Christmas and New Year, but I wouldn't be entitled to any time off with it being a temp job, so I feel like I want to just quit. Can always ask I guess, who knows. Not sure what i'll do up north, possibly on the job training to be an Ambulance Technician, but don't know yet. I still like the idea of a chocolate shop but definitely not in the place my uncle wanted to set one up.

Had a big conversation with Andy yesterday about stuff, and I said that his situation made it really really difficult for me plan my future, because I really want him to be in my future but he can't really have much of a future with the current situation with his mum. Basically, the gauntlet may have to be thrown down, in that, I'm moving up north with my parents and without him, until he realises that his mum will need 24/7 care and decides whether he wants to be with me in the very long term. Harsh and selfish I know, but that's the way it has to be for now. I cannot afford to rent let alone buy on my own down here, especially when I don't have a guaranteed income or real idea of what I actually want to do for the rest of my life. It's all a bit of a mess. It'll be shit being that far away from him but until he gets his life sorted out, it might have to be that way.